hypochondria
i have every disease and abnormal condition that a human can possibly have
you should definitely not talk to me or ever interact with me because i will definitely ruin your life
i feel not okay about myself or anything that i have ever done and i want to lie face down on a bed but with mattresses on both sides of me like a sad human sandwich
a sad human sandwich that really has a good life but the fact that the sandwich still feels bad makes the sandwich feel even worse
other people in the world are starving to death and i wish that i could feed them this sad sandwich, but i doubt that it would even be good
inherently bad sad human sandwich
12/21/12
remembering a time
in late 2012
when i went to a doctor
because of frequent panic attacks
he looked me in the eyes
and seriously asked me
if this had anything to do
with the upcoming end
of the Mayan calendar
i said ‘no’
and he wrote me a 2mg
xanax prescription
paleo diets
i’m sitting at a table in a bookstore
and Ben Gibbard from the band ‘Death Cab For Cutie’
is standing 15 feet away from me
holding a book about ‘paleo diets’
and i’m pretending to be working
on something important
and pretending that i’ve never seen
the Twitter account ‘Fat Ben Gibbard’
san pellegrino
man sitting on my porch
smoking unknown substance out of a san pellegrino can
i want to go inside
life like
life like the phrase ‘it’ll be as if i was never here’
a party but where everyone is crying instead
staring at a word for so long that it loses its meaning but with life
Self Mythology 